After a Summer of complacency it finally took grey skies, winds and rain tinkling on my windows for me to realise my new start is here.
New year may very well not be for another 3 months, but being a recent graduate, I'm finding it hard to shake off that student mindset and thus I am still thinking in terms of academic years.
This time of year always reminds me of new beginnings: new Autumn/Winter 'back to school' wardrobe, new playlist which gets you through the dark evening commute, new stationary, the smell of fresh paper in clean, unwritten notebooks and that eagerness and hunger of knowing that your on the cusp of learning something new, thus expanding your intellect.
So as I watch the people around me prepare and fold back into their daily lives I wonder - where does that leave me? I count myself lucky that I already have a graduate job in the sister field of where I would like to work, but the new season's got me inspired and given me reason to give myself that extra motivational push that I oh so needed to start feeling positive and get a game plan in practice.
So here's me throwing out my old notebooks and opening the cover to a brand new page:
1. To go back to being me. I've realised alot over the Summer that alot of my happiness depends upon being nice to other people because that's who I am. Period. There's no hidden agenda behind my smile, no falseness. I hate the fact that we live in a society where people question why your nice rather than why your mean. This needs to change - spreading love should be everyone's goal everyday.
2. Get inspired. To get back in touch with music and art and fashion and film because all of this things inspire me and motivate me to write. Being a writer is such a big part of who I am, I never want to lose my talent.
3. Peruse my bookshelf. Reading a great book or two is one of my alltime favourite loves and pastimes. I don't think I ever get a better feeling than being able to create a whole new world in my mind and get into someone else's head. There's loads of greats sitting on my shelf which I wanted to read throughout summer but never got the chance. I think now would be the perfect time.
4. Hold onto my dreams and do all that I can still make them come true. It's too early in life to give up, I don't think we should ever give up in what we believe in ourselves. People may make your believe that you should settle but I think we should reach until we get to the place where we think we should be.
5. Be Proactive. All of the above points mean me actually being proactive and physically doing something everyday to move myself a step forward - nothing is ever handed to you, you need to work hard and actually perspire to get self-satisfaction. I think the first realistic step in this would be for me to start blogging more on a regular basis, I've already left it far too long.
So here's to the new season, here's to my new start and here's to making it happen.
x
